I don't know who will see my blog but wat i writing down here is just my thought... This is my blog so wat i wan to write is my personal thought. I know there is no privacy.

I really don know wat to do now. Totally no mood to do anything for the past 2 weeks. Some of u may know the answer. How i wish the time can stay at 14 March 2008. I totally lost the movitation to continue my studies. I know many friends advised me to continue but i really lost the movitation liao how??? How i wish is her to give me encouragement to continue even though we are not from the same institution... N maybe she can say we can meet after her class or wat maybe for dinner or wat le... N let me feel at ease... Haiz... should i continue studying??? Or should i become a PHD (poly halfway dropout) I think i becoming one soon....

Somehow i feel like she avoiding me or wat. Or maybe got someone else she like already? I'm just not a good person ba in everyone's eyes. Feel like dying man... I can't control myself anymore. "CHANCE" who will deserve a chance? Even an ex-convict deserve a second chance. I always nv deserve a chance in love. I just don wish to give up waiting for her. I just wan to cherish her n take care of her. N i just don deserve any chance after all. Haiz... I'm just a lonely person wif no one love and care... Lonely in this world. I hate myself. hate everything in this world. Y is there such thing call love. Hate everything.... Let me vanish in this world ba u won't see me anymore.