There's only one word can describe my feeling now "moodless". Ever since i got my posting result i don't know should feel happy or sad. But wat i know now is sad. Even though i got in to my dream course but i still not happy le.... Haiz :-(.... I totally lost the movitation to continue my studies without her... Should i carry on studying??? I have no idea now... Right now i still quite sad inside my heart.

On 2 Apr, we got our ITE final semenster result. I got gpa of 3.688 and on the following day we will know our poly posting result.

On 3 apr, we finally know our posting result. At that time, my mind is like wat m i going to do? Accept the offer or go serve NS first? That the question which my friend had already warned me to make a decision before the result is out but i nv did... My heart is struggling... Den consult many friends and oso my mom... All tell me to study first becos i given the chance to study poly... So i decide to study first as it a rare opportunity... But deep down inside my heart, i feel sad... When i heard that most of my classmates went to NP, i totally sian dao lo... Call NP to ask for appeal but they say no more vacancy n ask me to stay put in SP. Again sian dao lo haiz....

Ever since i know the posting result, i have no mood to do anything. Even went out to shopping oso no mood to shop le haiz... I think my mom know i'm sad cos she ask me whether did i regret making this decision. I wanted to say yes but den i say Don't know... I totally lost the moviation to carry on studying... Who can help me?

I wish is her....