Girls, presenting... Guys. by ~tipsysummerleaves on deviantART

Is quite true... Many of my friends who are guy say is very true. So gals must see it and believe...

Si bei sian. Morning receive sms say today no PACC. Lesson cancel den went to school for 1 hour lecture nia. 9-10am den i go home. Sian lo... PACC lecturer so slack man always no tutorial lesson if got oso dismiss early...

After the long weekends from last week n this week i super slack man. Den i become more lazy liao. How man??? Don feel like doing tutorial qns man but i still got so many need to complete sian... I need HELP! WHO CAN HELP ME??? I guess i need to do it all by myself.

Next week will be last week before we go for 3 weeks holidays. Sian using this 3 weeks must study cos MST is after holiday come back the whole week is MST lo...

EC result is out on blackboard and i expected wat grade i'm getting. "C". I done quite badly for it. I damn hate phyics now... becos of phyics i got a grade "C".

Damn sad now sob sob...

Sian tml still got EC lesson. I hate going for this lesson cos need to use STANDARD SINGAPORE ENGLISH and NOT SINGLISH you know... Its hard.

Think i not going out tml after school need to head home to studies liao as well as to do my Econs tutorial if not i don have time to complete. Weekends need to work. No work = No $$$. Need to find other job liao... When one's purchasing power increase their wants oso increase. Too many on the wanting list.

Really have no mood to study le after the long weekends. Like the time spent wif my bros during the long weekends. Haiz always can't find enough time to accommodate to spend wif my friends. How??? How i wish i can invent the time machine and go back to the time during my sec school days. So carefree. No need to worry abt wat the future lies ahead. Just play basketball after school everyday.

If time can go back, when do u all wish to go back to??? (TBC in my next post)

If anyone happen to see this post, please give ur comment at my tagboard. I wan to hear all the comment regarding this qns. Thanks...

Today went back to Clementi ITE to collect my Higher Nitec cert wif Maggie. Went to NP to wait for her den make our way down to NP. Den after collect liao went to the canteen to have our lunch. Nv went to find any lecturers cos maggie scare later talk to them very long as she need to go back to school for SW.

Actually ytd i went back wif Nicolas. But i nv collect it. Den ytd find Mrs Annie den chat wif her awhile cos she busy. Den decided to pay Mrs Yeo a visit. Went into her office and sat down den chat wif her. Haha she ask me not to give up halfway haha...

Super duper tired now cos just now went to work at dorm... Super tired now still got accounting homework still haven do yet. Sian think tonight i going to sleep late liao. I'm still in the recovering stage. My nose still blocked sometimes.

Going to holiday soon. Next week is the last week before going for my 3 weeks break. Sian lo den come back on the 23rd June the whole week got MST lo... SP so weird de. After holiday den got test de...

I feel like going shopping le but i can't le... Need to save $$$ going to register for driving. I was thinking of signing up for the scuba diving in malaysia first den go learn driving le... Aiya the problem now is i need to save more $$$ and i need to find more jobs to work den got $$$. Cos i don wan to use my parents $$$. I look down on those who use their parent's $$$ to drive car or buy car. I gonna earn my own $$$ to buy watever i wan. Even if next time getting a car oso using my own hard-earn $ to buy.

Happy Vesak Day to all. Super tired man. I down wif flu. Flu bug attack me n i down. Ytd while working body feel so weak but i have to endure.





I'm such a failure in everything I do.

I really had a bad day today. It just not my day you know. Its time for me to brush up my english. Had my Effective Communication (EC) test today, and wat i can say is i flunk it. Damnn it... Its oral conversation and know wat my group members is talking abt nuclear energy and i know nuts abt it ok... And u know wat, i keep asking qns cos i really have no idea on nuclear energy. My lecturer hint us to change topic and i tried my best to change the topic to grenn house gases and air pollution and know wat my team members link back to nuclear energy. I was like sian 1/2 lo...

Our topic was on environmental issue and they keep talking abt nuclear energy lo for the whole 20 minutes. I done very very badly for my EC. Its time for me to brush up my english. Should have choose sports personality as our topic. Sian lo... I think i got a grade C for my EC. Need to jia you for my written test for EC.

After my lecture went to RP to find my friends. Waited for them to dismiss den go United Square to buy Xavier's Baby full month gift. Cos we going to her house tml so need to buy present. Get a hamper for her baby. Little Bob dog. Den after tat went to subway for dinner den went to mac to use internet cos wan to check li jia blog. Kiwi was damn piss off by her cos she went back to her hometown without informing us or write it at her blog say she went back.

I hate phyics now... Really hate it. And ah gu ask me to think of her RJ which is phyics qns again... I really hate phyics now.... I think i going to fall sick soon. Headache, sore throat wat more...

After the EC test today, I really feel very down. I feel useless lousy of myself. Walking aimlessly n i really don know where to head to... Just like last time u avoid me. I really feel very down walking down the road aimlessly alone and don know where to go. I had that feeling coming towards me again. Tat time i realise i don really have friends... Tat feeling make me so helpless...

Finally is Wednesday. Cos no school for me every wed and finally i m able to rest... Has been working for full days during weekends for 8am till 10pm and ytd sheng yang ask me to replace him for work. Den after my class ytd went to work. Finally i can rest liao.

Actually later going for a self management course den now still raining so don feel like attending. Maybe next week den attend. Monday just had my CD presentation. And i think is ok ok only. Sian fri still got EC conversation test. Must speak standard singapore english and no singlish is allow man. N some more one of my team member is so fluent in english. i think i going to fail it man. Some more our topic is environmental issue and he is going to talk abt oil and don know wat energy. Haiz...

Finally school holidays is coming soon, I just need a short break.

Time now is 3.03am n i still not asleep yet haiz think i not going to sleep liao... Later still need to work from 7.30am to 10pm for 2 days. Going to chiong work cos i going to broke soon. Got many things need to buy haiz...

1) New printer
2) Camera
3) MP3
4) Roller Blade
5) Tennis racket
6) New Basketball
7) New shoes
8) More clothes of course (super lack of clothes)
9) More time to spend
10) More $ to save for my trips.

Seriously 24 hours is not enough for me. I need more time please.

Wa lau i watch Ironman twice man. Think i'm a idiot rite for spending $ haiz no choice le. Thursday went to watch wif my poly classmates den fri watch again wif my friends.

I'm very sorry i can't celebrate wif my mom this sun. Wanted to bring my family out for dinner but den too bad i need to work. Next time i will make it up de... I need to think of ways to make $ work for us and not the other way round.

I think i going to break down really soon.

I think i screwed up my interview today for my cca. Haiz i just can't concentrate on wat the interviewer qns and i need them to repeat their qns again... Haiz i think i no chance in getting this cca liao. Tml still got 1 more interview for cca. Hope i can get in to this cca if not i think i don have cca anymore...

Super duper siansation in school le no mood to continue study haiz don know y again... Hate this feeling man totally sucks man.... Even 1 of my classmate can see my face is sian de lo... Haiz just sucks man this feeling.... I just can't concentrate on my studies and watever i do... I guess i need a long long break ba.

Econs and Stats is giving me headaches man... Demand and supply curve and market equilibrium all the curve is giving me headaches as well as standard deviation and all the formulas... Shit i just can't concentrate on it... Someone please help me? I need some help?

想念是会呼吸的痛, 它活在我身上所有角落

Haiz I fail my ITAB quiz today sad man... 5% is gone... Gonna buck up for my MST already.

How i wish everything was used to be the same? I guess it can't be the same anymore..

Life used to be very colourful wif u but not now anymore. Just like sheng yang say i totally lost my soul. And i think i won't be able to find my soul back anymore...

This part is dedicated for her:

I know i cause u disturbance in ur life and i sincerely say sorry to u. Hope u accept my apologies. I know things have change and even urself are changing. But u just change drastically or i should say that friday night. U just totally change. I just don know wat to do now. I feel like i lost everything overnight. Ever since the posting result is out, i become moodless and i don expect things to change so rapidly u know. I nv feel any happy getting my dream course. I think i can nv be a happy person anymore.

I know somehow u don't wish to hurt him but den u indirectly hurt me so much. I nv give up on u or feel wasting time waiting for u but you just give me up. Chance is always NEVER knock at my doors. Or maybe i not tat good for u. I oso don know y? U make me open up my heart u know which i used to be so msytery that i willing to open my heart just for u yet u r doing this to me. U know its really hurt me so much tat friday night. It totally change my perception in life.

I won't give up waiting for u becos u r the only 1 which i fall in love so deeply. And no one will replace u in my heart. I hope u won't forget me and i sincerely wish u all the best in ur studies and in life. I will continue to wait for u. Maybe 1 day my 19th birthday wish will cum true. I just hope to fulfill all my promises made to u and hope that maybe 1 day i can fulfill it.

I just miss you very much the things we used to do, the place we used to go, i just miss every momentand every single thing spent wif u... Which i think i can't be the same anymore ba. I really hope all this was this a dream to me but i was not somehow. Consider a bad dreams for me... I just can't live my life without u by my side. I know i don deserve any chance. This is just wat my personal views and feeling. ____________________________________________________________________________________

For the past few days, i was thinking of becoming a monk cos i lost my soul to continue on wif my life and i need enlightenment in life. I was even thinking of quitting my studies and go tibet or some other country to become a monk. Sheng yang say is good to become a monk and i totally agreed wif it. I just need enlightenment. I won't say wanna die anymore cos i don wan to avoid it or give excuses anymore. Its really a bad habit to give excuses all the time. And i hope everyone don give anymore excuses. I won't do foolish things anymore. Don't write on my tagboard say being a monk is a foolish act ok. I will smack ur head.

Today in school, i saw de last time de me from my classmates. It makes me remind of me n her. I really miss those days in ITE n of course her. Everytime i took the bus home from SP, passby clementi ite de bus stop will makes me remind of her 2. The bus stop which we used to wait for bus, den send her home. I really miss it very much. I really damn hate myself now. I just don know y? I hate myself, my life everything. I hate this hectic life. Maybe that nth good abt me tat y i hated myself so much.

Nowadays sleeping late cos i just wan to make my body feel damn damn tired in order to fall sick. I just don feel like sleeping early. Hope i fall sick soon haha...

I just receive a letter from SP saying I'm exempted from FOM. Yeah so happy man cos i got 1 module down in order to focus on stats n econs. The 2 main killer modules for me this sem. For stats really need to focus becos my tutorial lecturer wa the accent makes the whole class don understand wat he is talking man. So i must work double hard in order not to have any forward modules. Sorry guys in my group, i will help u all in the pbl trial as well as the actual de.

Having a presentation next week on monday haiz... Don know can make it or not haiz very nervous everytime. And den oral conversation is on week 5 don know wat the topic will be. must use standard singapore english and not singlish. Haiz...

Why do people always giving excuses? Any idea? I wanna know everyone opinion on this qns?

I think i decided to go try and be a monk 1 day. Wat do u all think? Any comment for me? Please left ur comment at the tagboard thanks. Maybe after my poly n before i go NS or after my ns i going to try 3 months monk in tibet. Yes i think i going to Tibet which i long wan to go. Hope i really have the chance to go there... The reason y i wan to try monk is becos i hate this hectic life of mine... I just wan a simple life i don care $$$. Is $$$ really very important to everyone? I know $ is important but den when someone die can u bring all ur wealth along wif u? I don know wat u guys think? So if u wish to comment please leave ur message after the tone. Hey no la joking de. Please leave ur message at the tagboard.

I know everyone encourage me to move on and i really appreaciate ur advice. I won't give up waiting de...